Awaken week 4&5

Oh boy I missed last week it was that kind of week so I'm gonna double up here!

Question #7 - Have you been able to step away from the chaos of your own thoughts?

NO, is initial knee jerk reaction!  Unfortunately I am an observer of everyone else except me.  I need to make meditating or at least quiet mind time a priority in my life ASAP.  I am having trouble with multitasking multiple sounds at once and it makes me crazy almost panic attacky:(

Question #8 - How do you find inner peace?  What is the importance of self-love and self acceptance?

I've always known I walk to the beat of a different drum, old-soul or ahead of my time kinda outlook as well!  So with not having a ton in common with the rest of the world I have had to come to terms with accepting myself as different and love those differences.  I can't imagine myself any-other way!  Whenever I slightly think I may be more normal than I thought the Universe always slaps me in the  face reminding me of the contrary. 

Question #9 - How do you deal with the problems in your life?  Do you seek solutions or spend most of your time reacting to what you think is wrong?

I'm a thinker, a researcher and will always search for solutions not allowing anything to be a permanent solution if it doesn't fit my mold.  I try to be proactive but reacting may be my first instinct then I quickly start problem solving. 

Question #10 - In what ways does your thinking shape your experiences of your life?

My mind rules my life.  If I am thinking how much something is gonna make me exhausted then that thought will pretty much make that event tiring!  Firm believer in you are your thoughts and that taking on every experience with a healthy, happy positive attitude will always result in exactly that!

Awaken week 6

Question #11 - What do you know about your judging mind? Are you generally more understanding and accepting of self and others, or are you more judging and critical?

As open-minded as I have proclaimed to be I think I still gots a ways to go to achieve total judgement free status.   I can't say I judge myself cause I have pretty good self-esteem and like who I am and where I'm headed, this hasn't always been the case!  I probably judge men the most!  I am almost convinced they are not human but an alien life form posing as human:)  Or perhaps a younger species not as advanced as females or a dying breed that can't function as well as females!  I just can't understand a race that can get away with the mindset that war, sexual abuse, abuse of any sort are ok.  I am typically shaking my head at most acts they do and my husband and all the other men in my life are no exception. Of course you can make the argument they are not all bad but they are not all awesome either!  My husband can be a pretty big idiot a lot of the times and when smart people do stupid stuff it makes me insane.  So ya not judging men as a whole but individually is a good start for me!  One man at a time one day at a time:)

Question #12 - What do you know about the feelings that you experience?  Do your feelings or push them away? Are you able to acknowledge and accept your emotions?

I know I feel and experience them for sure on the inside but don't always have a healthy way to express them on the outside. I have been experienceing panic attacks for the past years cause when my mind and body are not communicating and when they get overloaded that's my bodies way of giving me a wake up call!  I overload my brain with too many responsibilities and that's when shit usually hits the fan when my multitasking capabilities go haywire.  I need to quiet my mind and be present.  When I practice this I am much more calm and happier.

Awaken week 2

Question #3: Are your thoughts real? What is the knowing beyond the ordinary mind?

My thoughts are as real as I think them to be:) I give my thoughts their power so there's that! All I know is when I am in a bad/sad mood and decide to think of something happy I am happy! I enjoy knowing that I can change any situation just by thinking something else.

Question #4: what have you learned from the first 3 questions that expand how you view yourself?

 I have learned that I am on the right track! Everyday I get off track/derailed from living the good life but always find my way back. I think (hehe) that if I keep an open mind and a clear mind I can reach that blissful/Utopian state I am seeking (Heaven on Earth)!

Awaken week 1

So I am starting a new blogging series which will follow the new book I'm reading called Awaken: 100 questions to expand your mind and open your heart. By Joseph Bernard.

Question 1: Go inward and ask, Who am I?

I am energy, I am my thoughts! I am a spec of time floating in and out of other people's energy attracting and reacting to our time spent here on Earth! I am meant to be here now to learn and move forward in my place in our Universe!

Question 2: Are you your personality, your body, your thoughts, your emotions? If not who are you?

I am my thoughts! My body, personality & emotions are all a product of my thoughts. I am whom ever I can dream up to be. Sometimes I forget this and wonder why am a certain way than remember its all because I thought it up!!!

Monday Meditation week 16

Alright last post in this series! I'm trying to switch this up every quarter until I find one that speaks to me. My next theme will be based on the book, Awaken which has 100 questions! I intend to share some of the Q&A and hopefully learn and grow with this next 100 days! The Book is http://www.amazon.com/gp/aw/d/1468167685/ref=redir_mdp_mobile if your interested in doing this along side of me!

So the past week was pretty good, way better than last! My oldest daughter spent a few days out of town with her grandparents and I think it was just the thing we all needed and my youngest got to have a bunch of mommy dates together which was wonderful to give her my full attention.

When we all reunited again my youngest flipped out with excitement to see her big sis and couldn't stop hugging her. It was probably the best moment between them I've ever witnessed! They have been playing a lot more together as well. I think Parker had a growth spurt and is way more active and alert/interested in everything!

Got to go on a 10hr date with my husband, who ever gets to do that? We are super lucky and get to go to The Master's golf tournament every year. It was a gorgeous day and really had an excellent relaxing fun time.

I also started a new skin care regimen this week which I'm pretty pleased with. It's called an oil cleansing wash. The ingredients are about 25/30% Castor oil and the rest olive oil. You message your face with the oil Instead of washing with soap then press a hot cloth on your face until cool and keep repeating the hot cloth several times. So far so good definitely see a difference and its cheaper and healthier so a win win!!!

Monday Meditation week 15

Wowsa the universe is testing me for sure!

Went on vacation, well to my moms house which anywhere besides home these days has to count as a vaca, especially with free room and board! Some Atlanta friends were also there on spring break staying with another friend of ours. It was nice to hang with them out of town.

The weather could had cooperated a bit better so we spent a day at the mall and the beach day was a bust. We attempted but was way too windy. Went to the towns flower festival which turned out to be a nice afternoon.

The best part of the trip was leaving my oldest daughter there with her grandparents for a few days, thats when my vacation started. I forgot how easy 1 child is to take care of. I have gotten so much done at home and have been way more relaxed. It's not that my oldest is high needs/maintenance but to always keep your time/attention divided is exhausting!

Monday Meditation week 14

Wow hard week everyone sick so these pics are the happiest moments I can pull from a hard hard hard past few days!

Monday Meditation week 13

And I missed Monday, oops! I can't keep these days strait anymore. Elli started Tball this week, game was canceled due to rain but practice went great! She is the only girl on her team and the best hitter! This may be her sport, not soccer. She had so much fun can't wait for an actual game.

Got my check from the stuff I sold at the consignment sale last month. Was about what I expected. I can't wait for the next one in August. I will have way more stuff to sell, bigger check;).

I finally cashed in my Groupon for a reflexology foot message. It was great to have someone rub my feet for an hour! Next time I need a pedicure to go along with it.

I think I figured out what has been making me so moody this week as well. My cycle returned after 17mo pp and my hormones are going haywire. One minute I'm screaming the next I want to cry, not so awesome. But it is nice to know this is a hormonal issue that will work itself out and not permanent.